Ongoing Journey - September 2025

09-19-2025

Thoughts

you are so polite

I hear that most often when meeting new folks, and everytime a sense of unease I felt hearing this.

比起礼貌我更想听到的是我感觉被尊重被看见了, 礼貌听起来好疏远…

That’s the difference bewteen treating people the way they wish to be treated, still learning

Recently started interviewing and thought of Zoo elephant on chain. Baby elephant can’t break away from the chain on foot when they were little, so they lived with it even when fully grown.

Got reminded because 1) I can for sure break the chain 2) I am only a half grown elephant 3) I am not in a zoo lol

Intersting observation - since I started using AI Chatbots I asked more questions but dug deeper less

The AI PM guides on LinkedIn are all teaching you how to use AI

But that’s not what AI PM meant? AI PM should be the person making the models, but then, what’s the differences between AI PM and AI researcher / engineers?

A different kind of performance metric I am learning in hardware - making everything arrive on time

牛郎织女一年就七夕见一次，felt werid that it’s a tale where couples celebrates

Work project going rough and started reflecting when I felt the greater sense of defeat - having high expections, trying my best & get second place

“Robots (to perform well in real world) must learn two things: physical rules and human intuition.
…when I see condensation on a cup, I know it’s cold and adjust accordingly - this experiential knowledge, orders of magnitude larger than physics, cannot be enumerated in engines.

Potential answer to my qs on AI PM, AI PM adds the human intuition / judgement in AI’s process, makes the real world use cases more complete

What the society follows is rarely towards an individual’s best interest - another reminder for myself to think twice before following the norms.

people use TikTok more often when using Claude code, because they don’t know when the agent gets done 1 or 5 minutes, so scrolling through seems like the most effective way

Similar trend in life? When you know exactly when you will die, you start doing the things you felt matter (e.g. Deadlines).

政府复杂的地方在于，它是不讲究效率的，如果最终目的是最大人数的福祉，它甚至可以反效率（e.g. FDA）

via 梁文道，55.怎样判断政府的运转效率

思考工作是不是也是如此，我和老板的目标也可以是不一样的，在一份和我目标不契合的工作，我的目标应该是最大限度的探索/享受，而不是高效完成任务

People’s suggestion rarely cares about worst case scenario, in contrast, parents’ often do

College student who found some success creating online & wishes to drop out often get immerse support from friend / mentors, however the parents cares about economic depression and the loss of diploma for future job security

Of course, parents are the one who will take the risk for children if failed, makes me want to be the other side of the specturm - a friend who care about greater risks, and a parent who supprot even when I have to bare some consequences

从 20 岁开始，年龄的概念开始逐渐模糊，经常怀疑自己是不是已经成了中年人。

与之同时，时间的概念却越来越清晰 - 无法借贷，不能提前取出，投资关系和自我的唯一货币。

希望未来自己也能坚持做事，也希望我身边的人能够因为我的存在变得更好